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I forgot my bf's birthday. I seriously felt like the worse girlfriend ever! But that is so typical me. I forget what age people are, what year, month and day it is. Sometimes I even forget my own age! Luckily, Steven knows that, and expected it. I am so happy that he just laughed about it. I am gonna make up for it when he gets here in two weeks.
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Valentinesday never really had any significance to me. Heck, my own birthday don't have any significance to me! I think it is gewy and I'd rather not celebrate anything. But I find myself looking foreward to valentinesday this year. I actually want to go out for dinner, and/or watch a movie and so on...

Random: I have a feeling that Im going to be a soccermum in the future. Omg... A bit like Lynette Scavo?

Wait, that reminds me how much I miss watching shows like desperate housewives and sex and the city. I really had a great time following the characters lives. That applies to all series, and books. Especially those that have been a comfort for a long time.

I read this bookseries called heritage of sins (Arvesynd in norwegian) that followed the main character, Mali, that marries this wealthy farmer for the sake of his money. Actually, It was more like he bought her... Because her family needed the money. Anyways, the series is about her struggles as his wife, her relationship with him and neighbors, her constant battle against her mother in law that hates her - and then her affair with this guy, and how she ends up pregnant and spend her life lying about it. And this is just a TINY summary of TWO books out of 34! We follow her and her kid's lives in good and bad times -oh - and through world war 2.

I will never forget her story! I find myself thinking about her often. Wondering what happened to this or that or them... Missing all those times Mali spent in her bedroom, sitting by the window, looking up on the stars... Thinking, and wondering... crying and smiling. Dancing on the bedroomfloor... It is as if I was there, in that house. Like a ghost! The book is in motion inside my head.

In Norway these bookseries are very popular... And is often read by middelaged and old women ( - . - ) .. Ugh, some calls it for "Housewife porn", or something.

The picture on the book looks kinda stupid.... But I don't care. The content really appealed to me. LOL, In the beginning I wasn't even planning to read even one book.. I was just planning to read a page or two... But I didn't stop until I finished it. And then I found out that there were 32 books more... I had no Idea how consumed I would become.

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Oh, I was actually going to write about my secret plan for valentinesday... But Im gonna spare it to later. :-)

Current Mood: amused
Current Location: Livingroom
Current Music: None

When I get kids in the future, we'll definitely visit my cousin again.. And before that, of course..
Just a thought though- how perfect wouldn't it be if our kids would play together? Sigh.

Current Mood: calm
Current Location: Kai's livingroom

Steven and I are spending the weekend with Aunt C and my "new" cousin Kai. Seriously, he feels like my big brother!
And he is kinda hitting it off with Steven too. They have the same bad humor. We played cards and drank "gløg" and ate mandarines and chocolate...
Also, Kai took us pistol-shooting yesterday (on blinks). I have to admit my aim is horrible. At least I did fantastic when driving the four-wheeler for the first time in my life today.

The christmas-spirit is kinda getting to me now. Looking foreward to spending it with love and his fam.
Also, I am looking foreward to watching my all time favourite christmas movie:Three nuts for Cindarella. him in something.

The girl playing cindarella in the movie is stunning. Oh gosh how much I love the movie. I seriously cant remember last time I didn't watch it on christmas eve.

Current Mood: peaceful
Current Location: Kai's livingroom
Current Music: None

Where: School.
Who: With M and Odd.
What: Waiting for social studies to begin.
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You know that christmas is close when you smell oranges, gingerbread and gløgg at School. (A norwegian drink that smells good but tastes like crap.) I didn't oversleep and I went to bed early. I talked to mum about my lack of motivation, and she actually looked like she understood. Only a couple of months left... just gonna do my best.

Two nightmares in one night. I can't decide which one was worse... Chased by bees or my family ruining my dream wedding?

Current Location: School, grouproom
Current Music: None

After weeks with cripsy and cold weather, It is finally actually snowing. I can't imagine a december without snow. Just wrong.

Favourite seasons in order( best - worst ) : Fall - Winter - Spring - Summer
Sorry sun, I just don't do well with heat.

I should probably buy xmas gifts soonish too. I am gonna go shopping with Steven (My bf's actual name is 'Steffen', but I kinda translated it.)

His sister is kinda having high hopes about what we are gonna get her... Last year we gave her a cute purse/thing Also, she keeps nagging Steven about having children... She is exciting about becoming aunt one day. But as he keep saying to her, it's not gonna happen yet. Im glad im not there, that would be awkward.

Im not one for gifts... But this year mum and her boyfriend said that they will buy me a real bow and arrow. I am crazy about learning to shoot bow n arrow, and one day I will buy one for sure! But this year I need to wish for kitchen equipment since im moving in six/sevenish months.

Also I met my new cousin this weekend.. He was really nice and we really just 'clicked'. He is like an older brother to me now...
Favourite moment: Joining him to drive on the mountains on the fourwheel'er. It was cold, but it was in the sunset through the woods. He is just wonderful!

Next time, he said that I would get to try to actually drive it.

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Current Mood: happy
Current Location: Livingroom.

.. Lately I have been so swamped with homework and presentations that I have lost my motivation...
And when I am not motivated, I can't consentrate- and when I cant conentrate I do badly. In the end, my grades will take the bullet. I have always hated school, but it's not like I do badly. Mum is kinda freaked out this morning, because I wanted to stay home because of some lame reason I don't even remember. I understand her concern, but it's not like I don't understand the consequences already. I am eighteen and perfectly capable of making my own choices. Of course as the paranoid mother she is, she thinks something is wrong on school. That something is bothering me.

Hey, I have no problem with school: I have my circle, my friends, and I accept the classmates that I dislike. Classes are okay, even If it is too much homework and presentations are giving me anxiety. ( I hate standing in front of people and talk ). Teachers are good and understanding, and courses are interesting. My only problem really, is motivation.

It's not like i am gonna quit school to pursue my naive dreams of becoming a writer or an artist. I know what having no education will do to you. I've seen it in my family.

I just need some fire or passion... or something.

Current Mood: blah
Current Location: Livingroom.
Current Music: None

.. until the religion-teacher will let us go. He talks to us about buddhism..

Feels as if I reached nirvana just sitting here.

Perfect people with perfect clothes that fit their perfect bodies perfectly.

Current Mood: annoyed

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I slept over at my aunt's yesterday, and I originally planned to post some pictures from our walk, but the images are too damn big.
I had a really great time, spending time with her and playing with her dog and her cat... Stephen said we could get a cat ourselves when the new house is ready (which might take a while... Stephen's father arranged for a carpenter's firm to completely renovate the whole outsides/and parts of the insides+ change the windows and so on. I am so excited about it, and I will definitely write more about that later!.) Anyways, Stephen said he'd take me out to dinner before the hobbit premiere... He's paying for the whole date. I am so damn spoiled, and thats why I thought it might be nice to bring him to the place where I walked with auntie today... And maybe also bring some hot coco and something delicious to eat? I don't know yet.. It might get bloody cold before then, too, I guess..

Her dog. He is stunning.

Current Mood: lazy
Current Location: Our livingroom
Current Music: The hobbit main theme

ABOUT ME

► Name ➔
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yea
► Are you single ➔ Nope
► Are you happy ➔ Well that depends on my day- but overall? Yeah!
► Are you Italian ➔ No
► Are you German ➔ No
► Are you Asian ➔ No
► Are you angry? ➔ Right now? Nop.
► Are you Irish ➔ I have red hair, but ima not sure
► Are your parents still married ➔ Never was, never will be. And they are not together.

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ Levanger- Small town in Norway
► Hair Color ➔ Ginger/Orange/brown/red/ish
► Eye color ➔ They are blue with yellow Iris resulting in them looking greenish.
► Birthday ➔ 21 of March
► Mood ➔ Hungry, tired, bored
► Gender ➔ Female
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Right
► Summer or winter ➔ The fall. Winter.
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Early mornings. Preferably with rain.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
► Are you in love ➔ yup
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Im not sure. I was friends with my bf for three years before the romantic love-feeling thing... It was a process.
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ Never ended.
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ No.
► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ No
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ Yup
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ Yes
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ No?

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ Love
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Iced tea
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ One best friends
► Television or internet ➔ Internet( cause one can watch telly there too- )
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Coke
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ Romantic night in
► Day or night ➔ Both
► IM or Phone ➔ Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ No
► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ Yes. And when I was at my cousin (preeschool-age) I used to do it on purpose, so that they would let me decide what movie to watch. Omg, that's fucked up, lol...
► White water rafted ➔ Nope
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ No
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Yeah
► Prank called a store ➔ No
► Skipped school ➔ YES
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Maybe as younger

TEN PREFERENCES
► Smile or eyes ➔ Smile
► Light or dark hair ➔ Doesn’t matter
► Fat or skinny ➔ Preferably masculin and strong- but it doesn't matter
► Shorter or Taller ➔ taller
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Intelligence... Wait, both!
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ Don't care

ABOUT ME
► Last Phone Call ➔ Mum

► Last phone call you received ➔ My Cousin
► Last person you hung out with ➔ My Aunt
► Last thing you ate ➔ Spicy tomatoe soup
► Last thing you drank ➔ Arizona iced tea
► Last site you went to ➔ Tumblr dot com
► Last place you were ➔ School

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ Yes
► When was your last relationship ➔ Never
► Have you ever loved a guy/girl more than anything else in the world? ➔ That's deep.
► Do you still love them ➔ Of course

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along ➔ Yes, I guess
► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ Heh... No, not really. But lots of family situations though-
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ Yeah, but I turned arund when I passed the parking lot. Lol.
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ Clo
► If so, how long ➔ Nigga

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ No
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ Idk. Yes.. I guess.
► Who are/is your best friend(s) ➔ I don't keep lists. I have one particulary good friend.
► Who knows everything about you ➔ Noone.

So- I am in school and I just talked to a profession supervisor/or whatever it is called- (You know, that one teacher that is supposed to guide you when you don't know what to make of your life.) Honestly though- It wasn't much help. I still haven't got a clue what I want to work with. I will most likely never fint the perfect job slash profession... Well, I am moving with my boyfriend come summer, so I might as well just get a job there, and think about education later. And hopefully my father in law will be nice enough to get me a job at his work- HAPRO. I might have to program computers or some shits, but bf said that it was pretty easy. Something about clicking a button... How hard can it be, righ ?

I have this feeling that If I don't want to get knocked up and a stay-at-home mum, that I might have to hurry up and decide on education. Lol~I It's not like I hate being home, or don't like children (except newborns- They look like yellow, tiny voldemorts (-just with a nose)) Heck, I even look foreward to having children. Already picked out names and everything. But I still want an education. My family isn't exactely setting the best example, but then again.. Their childhood was different, and they grew up in different circumstances - But It would kinda feel good too. Btw, I wouldnt have a problem having children early, but I still feel I should be twenty-something.

Oh, and about those names: ( I have picked out two male and female names )

Luna Elisabeth Alexander

Amy / or Emily -something Aaron

Ugh, gotta run. Appearently I have classes!

Current Mood: hungry

That moment you decide to eat your lunch in peace and quiet, and then 5 people decides to join your room.( School)

And Btw, you might think that your hair look natrual and blonde, but trust me, it's not. It's yellow.

I have never been particulary good with writing about myself/my life/my day/my thoughts and so on-I mean, I had journals when growing up, writing about my crushes and my friends, but that was a completely different thing. Anyways, I promised myself I would start writing, and It might as well be on this website! I doubt that I will write anything interesting, thus I don't excpect anyone reading my posts.

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*Home. My beedroom. Tucked in with a cup of cinnamon tea. Ill. Sleepy. Hungry*
Spent the night alone home, which admittedly freaks me every time. When im sleepy and alone, my imagination tend to go a little wild. Im not scared of the dark or the night, im just scared of what's in it. I slept surprisingly well though, even after hours with geeking around on the internet and playing games. I should be at school but since I don't feel too well I decided to just sleep out. I probably shouldn't miss ART class, but I ~~hate~~ dislike our teacher. I don't bother telling her about my weekends/ or laugh and smile to her (Okay i admit that I sometimes come across as hostile), but that dont give her a reason to treat the two of us who dont kiss up to her differently. (Btw, we are four students taking this course in our year). She seriously ~~dislike~~ hate us. The worst part is, she doesn't even bother hiding the fact!
This one time, after a whole day with art printing, she insist that we ( me and Lis(The two of us that dont give in to the witch)) stay and clean every friggin thing up- because the other two (appearently) already did so. She didnt even bother to stay and wait for us to finish.
I am sure I could write a book about how much I ~~hate~~ dislike her, but then I would get too worked up and write things I would feel bad about later on, so Im not gonna do that. Not today.
My sister is staying the weekend here, which im looking foreward to. She used to be the annoying little sister that I would have to carry out of my room. But then my mum and the guy who used to be my stepfather for many years "split". (It weren't much of a relationship before.. and it hadn't been for a long while, so It was kinda excpected) Anyways, my annoying little sister became the grown (less annoying) little sister.

I promised her that we would play The Sims 3 together, which I intend to keep. When growing up, I remember how I would feel when let down after being "promise that- "' something.
I am going to make myself something to eat and find a tv series to watch... After finishing the two seasons of game of thrones in two days, I dont know what to do with my life. probably could have gone on forever about how much I love Arya, Daenerys and Tyrion but Im too hungry!

- Sky

Btw- Pictures that I post here are not by me, but pictures I have reblogged on tumblr(unless told otherwise)- All credits go to the artists/the photographers/the makers.