Okay, so..

Dec. 3rd, 2012 11:42 am
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 .. Lately I have been so swamped with homework and presentations that I have lost my motivation... 
And when I am not motivated, I can't consentrate- and when I cant conentrate I do badly. In the end, my grades will take the bullet. I have always hated school, but it's not like I do badly. Mum is kinda freaked out this morning, because I wanted to stay home because of some lame reason I don't even remember. I understand her concern, but it's not like I don't understand the consequences already. I am eighteen and perfectly capable of making my own choices. Of course as the paranoid mother she is, she thinks something is wrong on school. That something is bothering me. 

Hey, I have no problem with school: I have my circle, my friends, and I accept the classmates that I dislike. Classes are okay, even If it is too much homework and presentations are giving me anxiety. ( I hate standing in front of people and talk ). Teachers are good and understanding, and courses are interesting. My only problem really, is motivation.

It's not like i am gonna quit school to pursue my naive dreams of becoming a writer or an artist. I know what having no education will do to you. I've seen it in my family. 

I just need some fire or passion... or something.  

 



 


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So-  I am in school and I just talked to a profession supervisor/or whatever it is called- (You know, that one teacher that is supposed to guide you when you don't know what to make of your life.) Honestly though- It wasn't much help. I still haven't got a clue what I want to work with. I will most likely never fint the perfect job slash profession... Well, I am moving with my boyfriend come summer, so I might as well just get a job there, and think about education later. And hopefully my father in law will be nice enough to get me a job at his work- HAPRO. I might have to program computers or some shits, but bf said that it was pretty easy. Something about clicking a button... How hard can it be, righ ? 

 I have this feeling that If I don't want to get knocked up and a stay-at-home mum, that I might have to hurry up and decide on education. Lol~I It's not like I hate being home, or don't like children (except newborns- They look like yellow, tiny voldemorts (-just with a nose)) Heck, I even look foreward to having children. Already picked out names and everything. But I still want an education. My family isn't exactely setting the best example, but then again.. Their childhood was different, and they grew up in different circumstances - But It would kinda feel good too. Btw, I wouldnt have a problem having children early, but I still feel I should be twenty-something.










Oh, and about those names: ( I have picked out two male and female names )

Luna Elisabeth                                                Alexander 

Amy / or Emily -something                            
 Aaron 




Ugh, gotta run. Appearently I have classes!


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