Okay, so..

 .. Lately I have been so swamped with homework and presentations that I have lost my motivation... 
And when I am not motivated, I can't consentrate- and when I cant conentrate I do badly. In the end, my grades will take the bullet. I have always hated school, but it's not like I do badly. Mum is kinda freaked out this morning, because I wanted to stay home because of some lame reason I don't even remember. I understand her concern, but it's not like I don't understand the consequences already. I am eighteen and perfectly capable of making my own choices. Of course as the paranoid mother she is, she thinks something is wrong on school. That something is bothering me. 

Hey, I have no problem with school: I have my circle, my friends, and I accept the classmates that I dislike. Classes are okay, even If it is too much homework and presentations are giving me anxiety. ( I hate standing in front of people and talk ). Teachers are good and understanding, and courses are interesting. My only problem really, is motivation.

It's not like i am gonna quit school to pursue my naive dreams of becoming a writer or an artist. I know what having no education will do to you. I've seen it in my family. 

I just need some fire or passion... or something.  

 

 

Third of December

After weeks with cripsy and cold weather, It is finally actually snowing. I can't imagine a december without snow. Just wrong.


Favourite seasons in order( best - worst ) : Fall - Winter - Spring - Summer
Sorry sun, I just don't do well with heat.

I should probably buy xmas gifts soonish too. I am gonna go shopping with Steven (My bf's actual name is 'Steffen', but I kinda translated it.)

His sister is kinda having high hopes about what we are gonna get her... Last year we gave her a cute purse/thing Also, she keeps nagging Steven about having children... She is exciting about becoming aunt one day. But as he keep saying to her, it's not gonna happen yet. Im glad im not there, that would be awkward. 

Im not one for gifts... But this year mum and her boyfriend said that they will buy me a real bow and arrow. I am crazy about learning to shoot bow n arrow, and one day I will buy one for sure! But this year I need to wish for kitchen equipment since im moving in six/sevenish months.

Also I met my new cousin this weekend.. He was really nice and we really just 'clicked'. He is like an older brother to me now...
Favourite moment: Joining him to drive on the mountains on the fourwheel'er. It was cold, but it was in the sunset through the woods. He is just wonderful!

Next time, he said that I would get to try to actually drive it.

 

 

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